Dear ModCloth,

(Dear Blogger.com,
Why won't you connect to your server and let my edit my blog post and upload more photos? It has forced me into posting a very scant blog entry today. Thanks.)

While I deeply adore so many deliciously pretty items you carry in stock, why does it seem that everything that I actually desire to purchase is either Out of Stock or astronomically beyond my budget? This makes me very sad. I still have hopes for our relationship together, maybe someday we will work it out, but for now, here is a list of your grievances against me:

The Cindy Booties ($169.99) & Edie Wedgewick Shoes ($159.99)

Orchid Lane

I have been in the most horrible mood lately. Tuesday is the last day of my job, so I've been interviewing, hiring, and training people, which is downright exhausting. And I'm heading off to Telluride for a week and a half on the 8th, so there is planning going down for that. Right now I just feel like all the weight of the world is on my shoulders to not screw it up this time. College. Job. Relationship. FUTURE. Ya know, just light stuff.

BUT! Today I had to go to downtown Ann Arbor to get a new septum retainer because mine fell out in the shower and went down the drain...so I got to go into Pangea Piercing, which is always a treat. If you live anywhere near Ann Arbor and want a new piercing or jewelry, they are the only place to go. Everything is surgical grade clean and top quality, and their piercers really know their shit. Did I mention they have the most beautiful jewelry?! I think I am going to finally grow some balls and gauge my ears out just so I can wear some of the gorgeousness...

Oooh and right before that I went to one my most favorite stores in A2 called Orchid Lane. Everything in their warehouse right next to the store is $15 or under!!! I got the most darling skirt, a shirt, a knitted headband, and the cutest gloves for only $50! The gloves are a lot like a yellow leather pair that Rebecca of The Clothes Horse wore once, and ever since I saw them I have been on a mission to get a pair myself. Mine are knit fabric though, not leather. Anyway I'll whip out the new cuteness tomorrow and take some *gasp* outfit photos. Hopefully there will be some sunlight tomorrow....

Also tomorrow, I really hope to be able to go see Avatar again. Not to sound like the biggest loser in the world, but I really resonated with that movie, especially Neytiri. I feel like I must have have been Native in a past life or something because I just feel like that is how I should be living my life! Ya know, out in the wilderness...riding flying dragons.... :)

Failure is not falling down, but refusing to get up.

I am so deeply jealous of anyone who has a washer and dryer in their own home. I don't have to go to a coin-op, but I have to go outside, around my building and down into the creepy smelly musty basement to do my laundry. This results in me putting off doing my laundry until I literally do not have a single item of clothing to wear anymore, and my laundry pile is overtaking my bedroom like some clothing blob monster. Whine whine whine...

So I have no plans of marriage at the moment, but for some reason I like to spend often copious amounts of unwarranted time browsing weddings mags, sites, and just generally looking at weddings rings and dresses. I was never one of those little girls who planned her dream wedding, I preferred to play in the dirt with my brothers and spend the days at the barn with my horse...but I have definitely grown up to be one of those women who like to make wedding collages.

I don't have TV in my home, so whenever I get a chance to watch TV I always see if TLC's "Say Yes to the Dress" is on. It seems like every time I watch that I end up crying with one of the brides. I am such a cheeseball. Naturally, I got online at KleinfeldBridal.com, fibbed about a wedding date, and started browsing wedding dresses. I have come to the conclusion that I am repeatedly drawn to the V-Neck A-Line/Sheath dress. I am pretty much in love with these beauties!

Le Spose di Gio

Monique Lhuillier

Claire Pettibone

On a not-so-separate note: I completely and totally hate my new neighbors who live in the apartment below me. Two nights ago they threw a party that consisted of gangster rap and yelling that lasted until 4am. Yesterday they blasted their ghetto rap music and the "Discovery Channel Song" all day long at levels that I don't even think my stereo are capable of. And today I have discovered that on top of all of this, they are gamers. They are the type of gamers who don't wear headphones, but have a stereo system hooked up to their computer or whatever, so they can hear all of the explosions at a realistic level...and react realistically by constantly screaming at the game. Thank God I only have one more month here...the point is, I cannot handle listening to them anymore, so instead of posting more pretty engagement rings and such, I am going to watch some more Weeds and drown out their noise with some noise of my own.

Orange Juice & Champagne

Sorry it has been so long since I posted anything. I cannot even start to begin to tell you about the massive shit storm that has been my life lately. Pardon my french, there is no other way around it. But I don't want to talk about that. Unfortunately, along with all of that comes me wearing a whole lot of jeans and hoodies, so I have nothing cute to show you. I did wear one outfit I liked, but as soon as I tried to take any pictures my mom poked in and was like, "Ooo what are you doing?! I want to take pictures on my camera!" So...I have no pictures. But my mommy is cute and I love her anyway.

I love Weeds. Just a couple days ago I went by my Dad's place and he happened to have season 5, so I have started to plow my way through that. Basically that means that when I'm not working I am spending a copious amount of time sitting/laying on my couch eating spoonfuls of Nutella, munching on macadamia nuts, and drinking mimosas with my boyfriend.

Speaking of work, I just put in my two weeks on Tuesday! I am so excited! Good riddance!!!! It is so past due time that I move on. So on that note, what I am doing, it going to visit my grandparents in Telluride in a couple weeks here. I love Telluride so much, just look at how beautiful it is:

This picture is from www.telluridevisitorinformation.com. If you ever have some extra cash...or I should say a lot of extra cash, think about visiting.

Basically what it looks like right now is that when my lease is up here at the end of March, I am going to be moving to Telluride for the summer to volunteer at the San Juan Riding Program.

"The mission of the San Juan Riding Program (SJRP) is to promote equine facilitated therapy and activities for people with disabilities.

The San Juan Riding Program will provide quality recreational experiences and make the outdoors accessible by utilizing adaptive teaching techniques.

These interactions with horses promote opportunities for beneficial improvement of physical, emotional and cognitive well-being to improve quality of life."

I am so so so excited about this opportunity!! I really hope it works out. Equine Facilitated Therapy can do such amazing things physically, emotionally, and mentally for adults and children with all sorts of different disabilities, and I am so excited to be involved with a beautiful program like this in a real way. Look at how friggin cute this little boy is!

Oh yeah, all of the information on the program and this picture are from the San Juan Riding Program website at www.sanjuanridingprogram.com

Wait, which one is decaf?

First off, my blog is going through image puberty right now. I'm trying to get it looking pretty, but the process of doing so is probably going to result in many an awkward ugly duckling blog moment. Hang in there, I will be a beautiful swan blog one day!

The complete lack of intelligence in some of my customers befuddles me. Today I had this guy come in and order two small coffees, one regular and one decaf. On the decaf one I wrote "decaf" in giant letters with a red marker on the side. Then I had the man his coffees, hold up the decaf, point to the writing, and say, "This one is the decaf." I swear to god, not even three seconds later the guy looks at me, and asks, completely serious, "So, which one is the decaf?" I took everything in my power to not jump over the counter and be like..."Well it is probably the one that has "decaf" written in giant red letters on it! The one I just pointed out to you!!!!!" Lord have mercy...

This outfit is from a couple of days ago...I don't have any proper pictures of my standing in this outfit because after I had taken the photos and put them on my computer I realized that in all the photos I am dangerously close to pulling a Brittney Spears and showing everyone my pikachu. This is the first time I have ever layered tights! Much warmer, very nice. I got this dress up in Anchorage, AK at Lulu E. Bebe where Delightfully-Tacky used to work, she actually picked it out for me! This isn't my favorite styling of this piece I've done, but I was feeling sort of 80's dance party/work-out-a-thon. So why the hell not, you can't win always. I just felt like I should have been out clubbing at The Bang instead of shopping at Whole Foods. Lesson learned :)

Hat/Gap :: Dress/Crimson Ivy from Lulu E. Bebe :: Shirt/UO :: Tights/Macy's & Target :: Leg Warmers/ American Apparel :: Shoes/ Forever 21

In other news, my boyfriend face got his car stolen from right out front of his house two nights ago!! All of his work equipment was in it, as well as a pair of my Spanx! Sad day, those things are expensive! I think they were in his car because I wore them to a Thanksgiving dinner. Hindsight is 20/20, but wearing restrictive undergarments to an event at which the point is to stuff your face is not a good idea! Look at me go, whining about my missing Spanx when my poor man has lost basically half of his earthly possessions.

I watched Requiem for a Dream last night, which I think is one of the most amazing movies ever. Watch it some time if you haven't already. On that note, Jared Leto is pretty scrumptious. I know he's all emo 30 Seconds to Mars now, but whatever, I'd so tap that. I especially love that he is less eye-liner-y and more beardy. But honestly, what is going on with that hair, it's like he pulled it all up in front and just hair sprayed himself into oblivion. It's a little too There's Something About Mary for me. Ramble ramble ramble...

Photo from Nylon.com

Hyenas are not Friends

Somehow I got sucked into working today, which other than making a couple extra bucks, rendered my day useless. I hate that. Basically I need to grow up and clean my house, but I'm avoiding it like the plague. Not just avoiding cleaning, I am literally avoiding my house, I've been staying and the boy's place. Yikes. Mommy is coming into town on Friday for muh burfday and I need to tidy up and pretend like I can actually take care of myself for a couple days ;)

In other news, meet the love of my life:

Carpet Bag/The Getup

I feel so silly posting this outfit because I literally wore it no where. I put it on, walked around my house a bit, and decided that today was definitely just a jeans and hoodie day. Does that ever happen to you? I figured I wasn't going anywhere, and I didn't feel comfortable...but I really wanted to put on the new tights I got from UO, if just for a moment. I'm silly.Boots/Zigi Soho :: Tights/Urban Outfitters :: Skirt/H&M :: Belt/Target :: Shirt/H&M :: Necklace/I don't remember I've had it for so long....! :: Hat/Gap

In other news, meet my boyfriend face! He's sitting next to me griping away that I am posting this picture online because his smile looks about creep and weird, but I want to give you something! He just said that he wants to take some photos with me, so hopefully I will have something cute of us soon :) Oh and the cute one in the picture is my Billie monster, she's almost a month old now!

On another note: I hate sports. Well, "traditional" sports. I love equestrian sports and running and such, but honestly football and basketball and hockey and baseball could disappear off the face of the planet and my life would be no worse for wear. Yes, this rant has to do with the Super Bowl. I don't think I even knew there was a football team named the Saints before today. Yikes...I am so un-American...

Tearing At My Heart!

So yesterday I went thrifting at The Getup here in Ann Arbor. If you are ever in the area you should check it out, it's a really fun little vintage store! I got extremely frustrated because most vintage clothing is made for women who were "vintage size." Basically, my boobs fit into nothing. I did end up getting one dress though, I will have it up here tomorrow. I also got the most amazing carpet bag. I took one look at it and feel in love. Hell, I think it might just be the love of my life right now. I have caught myself staring at it in the passenger seat while driving a couple of times! Distracted driving!

Also, why must Urban Outfitters be so full of the most wonderful darling clothing that is so very far outside of my budget! I was literally distressed by all of the pretty things I could not even think about buying, I think I might have just shed a tear or two. I fell in love with one skirt that was something ridiculous like $68. And there was this other dress that was so perfect and wonderful, but they only had it in size itty bitty. Right now I am searching their website so I can post some pictures of the beautiful things...but apparently nothing I found is available online. Why didn't I think to take pictures of the things in the store? Ah, to live and learn...

In other departments of life: I've started running again. I have this love hate relationship with running. I ran track for a couple years in high school, and I've run a couple of 5K and 10Ks since then. I get really annoyed with running while I am doing it, but as soon as I am done I think, "That was awesome! Let's do it again tomorrow!" And the soreness is the best kind of hurt. If I had my way, I would be riding horses every day, but I so do not have that kind of money.

Basically the point is that I need to lose some weight. Actually weight doesn't mean much to me at all, it is more a quality of life thing, weight just happens to be an excellent indicator of where you are at fitness wise! Even when I am fit, I am still curvy. I think the smallest my boobs have been since I first got them (lol) was a 36D, so don't worry, I'm not trying to become a stick monster. While we were shopping yesterday, my friend David and I decided that for every pound I lose, I should put $20 away into a savings account, and when I get near my fitness/weight goal, go on a shopping spree, ie. spend lots of money at Urban and Thrift Stores!

Ugh no pictures or anything, what a visually boring post! Lo siento my loves! I shall have something a little more titilating up tomorrow...I hope :)

"Cultivate your curves...

...they may be dangerous but they won't be avoided." -Mae West

Can we just take a moment to appreciate the stunning woman that Mae West was? She was one of the first women of her time to really get out there and embrace her sensuality, eroticism, feminism, and curves!! And heaven have mercy, that woman has sass!

"I didn't discover curves; I only uncovered them."

"Love thy neighbor - and if he happens to be tall, debonair and devastating, it will be that much easier."

"Sex is emotion in motion."

"A hard man is good to find." (hah!)

"When I'm good, I'm very good. But when I'm bad I'm better. "

"A woman in love can't be reasonable - or she probably wouldn't be in love."


Recently I have read two books entitled The Tao of Equus and Riding Between the Worlds both by Linda Kohanov. Not to sound like a total cheeseball, but these books have literally changed my life. Before I read The Tao of Equus I had heard of equine-facilitated therapy (EFT), but this book shed light on the practice with words and experiences that I had never been privy to before. The book chronicles the author's the time from unwitting stumble into the world of EFT to how she realized that this is what her true purpose is. After reading this book I knew that being involved with EFT is my true purpose in life. Ever since I made the decision to align myself on the path to this career, and everything involved in to get there, absolutely everything in my life has been falling into place PERFECTLY. It's amazing. After I finished reading The Tao of Equus I picked up Riding Between the Worlds, Linda's next book, which goes into more detail about the actual experiences and tribulations involved in EFT. I'm not quite done with it yet, but I can always be sure that I will end up crying at some point in every chapter, out of joy or sorrow, or maybe both. Tears, I believe, are powerful. To me tears express that you have hit on something deep and authentic, so I always love a good cry :)

I've been riding horses since I was 8 years old. I rode and trained in dressage for a year, and hunter/jumper for three years. After that point I acquired my first horse, Mocha. My Mocha is a 16.1hh registered Quarter Horse, and we spent our 10 years together playing and exploring the wilderness of Alaska. Maybe it sounds silly to you, but he is my soul mate. I had Mocha for 10 years, up until the time I had to leave for college. I found him a temporary home in Oregon, but I eventually had to sell him about a year ago because there was just no way for my poor busy ass to bring a horse back into her life. Now, several years later, I'm planning on moving my pale sun-starved self down to Tucson, AZ to get myself a degree in Equine Science and pursue to career of my dreams. Ever since I sold Mocha I miss him like you wouldn't believe. Boys have come and gone, and my heart has healed and moved on, but I've never gotten over this horse. So once I am settled in in Tucson, it's only natural for my to pursue getting my baby back. I know exactly where he is and who owns him, so tracking him down isn't the problem, money is; horses eat money! I don't know how to describe it other than I feel like there is this constant pulling sensation in my solar plexus, and when I breathe into it, the message I get over and over again is "Get Mocha back."

Enough deep shizz for now. I must mention that I watched the entire first season of The United State of Tara on Sunday! The premise of the show is basically about this average woman with a husband and two kids...only she has DID: Disassociate Identity Disorder. Tara isn't always Tara. Sometimes she's T. Or Buck. Or Alice. Or Gimme...oh my! As always, Toni Colette is fabulous, and her TV hubby Max, played by John Corbett, is scrum-diddly-umptious! If you haven't seen this show you should check it out and laugh your ass off!

...even true beauty is too wild for you

My life is nothing but drama right now and I hate it. But on Sunday I decided to brush my teeth and not look like everything that has been going on...has been going on. So yay! Michigan is pretty much the most dreary cold dark place ever right now, so I apologize for the poor lighting. This is one of my favorite outfits currently, it's cute but pretty comfy too!

This picture was totally unintentional, but it crack me up, so why not! It's like one of those amazing old pin up type photos, only more clothing (sad!). Here's a fun fact: I heart naked. But let's keep this blog PG for now...

I decided bunny Lilah should join me for a couple photos. She's so giant and fluffy and fat. She hates me so much but I love her to death.

boots/ugg :: leggings/ h&m :: skirt/h&m :: plaid shirt/target :: yellow shirt/h&m ::belt/target

Ugh I'm sorry this is so brief today! Drama is awaiting me, and I must attend to it...once there is something solid to share, I will...!